Whew

I'm so fucking exhausted. Will need a couple weeks to recover. Have no idea how I'll cope with work next week.

Seriously I cannot do this again next year, unless I win the lottery before next January and retire.

噩梦

今早又做了掉牙齿的恶梦，这个 recurrent nightmare 已经好久没做了，忽然又来了。每次焦虑或者心情低落的时候容易做这个梦，满嘴牙齿碎片的感觉跟真的一样。

可能是因为，昨晚给一个朋友打电话，听说她妈妈病危不行了，大概这两天就要去世了。我认识她很久了，她妈妈从挺年轻的时候就得了MS，这几年尤其不好，除了几个女儿其他人都不认识了。

到了这个年纪周围开始有死亡的消息。记得跟某同学交往的时候，他的一只猫死了，我还哭了一场。

感慨人生很长也很短，委屈地活了一些年，也没过上多少舒坦痛快的好日子，忽然就完了。

US Nationals 2012

I'm getting too old for this sh*t.

明明是每天都坐在冰场里看比赛，为什么早上起来浑身酸痛涅？

2003年后有印象的节目

Updated 1/25，说不定能凑够10个。

男单：
1. The Mission (Matt Savoie/Tom Dickson)
2. Naqoyqatsi (Jeff Buttle/David Wilson)
3. Schindler's List (Jonathan Cassar/David Wilson)
4. Eight Season (Jeremy Abbott/Tom Dickson)
5. Chocolat (Stephane Lambiel/Salome Brunner)
6. Pirates of the Caribbean (Braden Overett/Braden Overett)
7. Jazz Medley (Yannick Ponsero/??)
8. Harlem Nocturne (Derrick Delmore/Jill Shipstad?)
9. Insane in the Brain (Adrian Schultheiss/Galina Lutkova)

冰舞：
1. La Valse (Jane Summersett & Todd Gilles/Tom Dickson)
2. Devdas & Bunty Aur Babli soundtracks (Meryl Davis & Charlie White/Marina Zueva)
3. Somewhere in Time (Marie-France Dubreuil & Patrice Lauzon/David Wilson)
4. House of Flying Daggers (Trina Pratt & Todd Gilles/Christopher Dean)
5. Carnival in Venice (Isabelle Delobelle & Olivier Schonefelder/Pasquale Camerlengo)
6. Pink Floyd (Tessa Virtue & Scott Moir/Igor Shpilband & Marina Zueva)
7. Samson et Delila (Meryl Davis & Charlie White/Shpilband & Zueva)
8. Hitchcock soundtracks (Piper Gilles & Zachary Donohue/Tom Dickson)
9. Organ Donor (Natalie Pechalat/Fabian Bourzat/Sasha Zhulin)

双人：
1. Pina (Aliona Savchenko & Robin Szolkowy/Ingo Steur)
2. L'Oiseau (Aliona Savchenko & Robin Szolkowy/Ingo Steur)
3. Galicia Flamenca (Jessica Dube & Bryce Davison/Lori Nichol, David Wilson)
4. Daphnis et Chloé (Amanda Evora & Mark Ladwig/Jim Peterson)

女单：
绞尽脑汁想不出来。这么多节目白看了。以后干脆全部跳过得了。
总算想起一个。
1. Dr. Zhivago (Alissa Czisney/Davis Wilson)

Nine Tailors

看样子出发前是看不完这一本了。差不多到三分之二的地方。

过去只读过一篇 Lord Peter Wimsey 系列中的短篇，看过几集很低成本的电视剧，感觉非常 cozy 派，但这本小说是非常典型的 police procedural 派，虽然设定在英格兰乡村，甚至对独特环境的描写也跟 PP 派传统相似。

节奏拉得挺慢的，得耐心地看。

Adorable Freund

我大概有点爱上 Anno 1790 里的男二号了。这剧其实有点阴沉压抑的气氛，但是可爱的男仆 Freund 同学总是忽然跳出来逗人开心一下。跟 Jeeves 一样万能（又要教警察局长家的孩子读书，又要给探长及其女友做饭，又要帮手探长破案和局里内斗，还要苦口婆心地拯救所有这些罪人的灵魂！），但又比 Jeeves 更多几分 attitude。 他们的主仆对手戏真是逗死了，捶地 --- 虽然造出来的都是 belly laugh 而不会哈哈地笑出来，唉，我最吃这一套，但是这种北欧式笑不出声的jokes我总是学不来！

Utterly Hopeless

Yet another fascinating ... "thing" I just happened to come across, would like to explore, but have no time for: World politics and history through the view of neo-realism. It's all because I read a feature in The Atlantic about John Mearsheimer. Oh, what a breath of fresh air to replace that rotten egg smell of Idealism (trademark of the special American brand) saturating the air. It is hardly a coincidence that Mearsheimer is interested in China. But I really don't have time to read his books, even though I'm incredibly intrigued.

As a Chinese person, I'm secretly amused that Mearsheimer is and will remain a Cassandra, a pariah, a voice in the woods, kept away from mainstream policies and influences. :)